bie :((

awak busy dgn trial ..

sy busy cari awak ..

sy nak awak tahu sy RINDU AWAK SANGAT SANGAT .

muke sy bekerut sakit sbb rindu awakk >.<

perut sy belipat lipat sbb ingat kat awakk :)

pipi sy naek gendud sbb nanges ta dapat cari awak dalam mimpi sy ..

kepale sy benjoll sbb terlanggar almari bile khayal kan awak >.<

sy kacau ladybird sbb sy sunyi :((

sy nanges 4jam sbb bile bgn tido awak tak ada :((

sy pelok baju awak sbb sy rindu nak jumpe awakk ..

sy tulis name awakk dalam paper essay Teacher Roza sbb selalu risau kan awak ..

lastly , sy ta tido ni pun sbb asyek tgk gambar awak dgn sy .. and because imissyou so fucking damn sial ..

SAYE BUAD AND TERIME SEMUA YG SY BG TAHU NI SBB SAYE SAYANG AWAKK , AWAK ADE BUAD MACAM TU TAK ??=.=

last day :D

die dtg jumpe :0
hehehe ..
and for the first time .. he called me yankx :)
heheh ...
how sweet >.< ..heheheh ..
kami byk buang mase dgn benda yg bukan2 , like masing2 tunjuk betape hodoh nye muke masing2 :)
walaupun kami same2 cute :D HAHAHAHA
baby .. iloveyou so fucking damn sial much :D
dont you ever dare leave me ..
again :D T.T
hehe ..
and kami due2 tak mandi seharian semalam :)
hahah ..
die teman aku tido pg tadi ..:) jage aku ..
how cute you are !
loveyou ! heheh .. missyou !

break off T.T got a special replacer:)

aku putus da dgn epul last thursday .. die yg minx putus ,kata nye ' awak pilih samada na cntct dgn fit or saye'aku pun take time untuk pikir .. last last aku ckp aku pilih die , then die pulak cakap 'awak, kite putus ??ye a sy tgk awk mcm taley lupekan fit je??' then aku pun tekejud mcm org naek sawan .. hmmakhir nye d pendek kan cerita aku da breakdgn syaiful rizman , thanks for everythng awak ..

but .. aku ada happy thng yg berlaku kat aku ..

orang yg pernah mati kan semangat aku dulu , hidup kan balik semangat aku yg dah pdm dulu :) aku amek keputusan nak get back dgn die lagi pun die da berubah byk :D

tapi die cakap 'bie nak bg bubu mase untuk cooldown ' bie , i dah cooldown dah :)

i nak kite jd mcm dulu T.T

= = ,, but then tak semesti nye tak de halangan time nak get back dgn fitrie saidi kan??

sekarang ni pun dah mcm2 aku dapat..

btw to syaifl rizman .. awk yg minx sy getback dgn fit sampai sggup pts dgn sy kan ??

sy akan tunai kan permintaan awk ..

for bie ryker : miss you a lot sayang ! XD

next school ..

hey :)

papa , suruh pindah school , ema tana , aku pun ta na ..
tapi , bak kate sum one , berkoban untuk spm this year , alah ..
last year je pun ..lagi 5 bulan je ..
haha ..
dedek merajuk , alongg merayu , mira bengang .haha yeke ..
ada sesetengah suke aku pindah , seperti orang gile ,, kat sekolah kelas 5murni ..
aku pun seronok gak lah coz tak lah kene kacau dah ..
aween , hui ju , pei gi , and yg laen ..
aku taklut pindah sana takut kene buli ..haha
hmm ..
haha ..
rindu kat nadia :D
hehe , i wish i will meet new friend ..

realise bout somethng ..

well , dari smlm aku jadi stalker je ..

aku tak tahu ape yang aku nak ..

serious .. i dont knw wht i want ..

i just wanna cry a lot ! becoz .. i miss you dude ..

yeah .. shes really nice huh??

yeah ..i knw it ..

she nice , knw how to make you happy , doesnt make you stress 24 hours 60 minutes ..

i knw tht she can make you happy all the time ..

die ta mcm i yg kuat membebel , kuat marah ..

i realise all about tht , i just wanna tell you tht when you do the same for the 4 time ,

to me .. my feeling , still be that .. same .. hurt , cry , lose appetite , toreh tgn , try to hate you ..

but its doesnt work ..

Tuhan je tahu mcm mane i syg you , selame 1 tahun 5 bulan ni ..

kite mmg couple yg sgt terok dulu ..

tp tu mmg cara kite ..

i ta tau kenape tapi hati i ckp yg you still syg i ..

fitrie saidi .. i try to live without you ..

but you pun tahu kan saket nye mcm mane ..

kalau relationshp you dgn fitrah tu mmg yg you nak ..

i cant do anythng ..

but please giv my love back ..

my love just for one guy that love me , appreciate evrthng i do , ta buat i nanges ..

and dulu bg i .. you lah guy yg i ckap tu , dulu evrythng indah , yeah kite start break sbb i ..

but ..mcm you tak buat salah kan??

okay .. bout i pggl you kejam , binatang ..

mmg ye pun ..

bkn kali ni je you buat mcm ni , da banyak kali kan ??

and i tak tahu kenape i still tnggu you ..

i just ta na you hilang ..i syg you sgt ..

you pun dah ade bukti yg i syg you kan ..

tapi i tak sangke ni yg you buat .. after all i did evrythng for you ??

well , i harap fitrah dapat tahan dgn perangai you yg akan buat org semua nak maki you ..

tahan dgn sebarang kata kata .. diam dgn senyum .. tu lah yg i buat selame ni .. mybe bg org laen *eleh 1 tahun 5 bulan tak lah lame mane* tapi just you and i , only knw , nape 1 tahun 5 bulan tu jd sgt bemakne .. i mmg pelupa , tapi pasal kite i ta pena lupe , birthday , anniversary ..

tapi you?? you lupe semua .. and birhtday i you wish pling lambat .. padahal i kat dpn mate je??

mmg ni bnda kecik tapi i ingat lagi ape you ckp pasal birthday wishh , you cakap thats only way to make your partner happy on their birthday ??

rite ..

even time tu you spending time for me ..

tapi i ta happy coz you buat i mcm sampah ..

nak tahu takk . dari 20.10.2009 sampai sekrang , i dgr je you maki i , marah i even salah you pun .. even you buat i nanges hari2 , tapi i ta pena nak benci you..

dari dulu smpai sekarng you suke toreh luke yg bdarah kan???

sekarang luke tu betol betol ta boleh and lame nak elokk ..

youre the last guy tht i love ..

your stalker ,

ivyrara :(

geram tapi rindu ah !

you .. kite asyek gado je sekarang kan ??
even pasal bnda kecik pun kite ley gado kan ??
nape ea??
you kdg kdg buat i na maki je you ..
tapi ta ley coz .. i rindu you ..
and i tahu you pun same :D haha ..
bie .. saket tekak i dah okay sikit kut ..
you dah sehat ta??
bie ..
i'll be waiting for you :)
janji cuti ni you dtg sinie tau bie :)

my seventeen birthday :)

3 feb 2011 :)
the best day ever :)
die ade dgn aku ..
satu hari ni :)
even ta celebrate pun .. happy sgt sgt ..
die jahad :(
die orang yg paling lambat wish birthday aku :((
shitt betoll ..
tapi happy :)
sangat sangat :)
srry if da lame ta update blog :)
thankss for coming sayangg :)

new rara :) ivyRARA :)

sudah memakai cermin mata :D
haha sudah rabun lahh ..
my power eye r-7.56 L-6.50
tinggi kan haha :D
my babyspecc colour yellow + orange +black :)

borengg :((

imisshim so much !
bie ..
i dgr dah lagu nelly-just a dream :)
nak nanges dgr lagu tu :'((
this one for youu ..

perfect two :) auburn..

you can be the peanut butter to my jelly ,
you can be the butterfly i feel in my belly ,
you can be the captain i can be your first mate ,
you can be chills that i feel on our first date .

you can be the hero i can be your side kick ,
you can be the tears that i cry if we ever split .
you can the rain from a cloud when its storming ,
or you can be the sun when a shine in the morning .

dont know if i could ever be ,
without you cause boy you complete me ,
and in time i know that were both see ,
that its all we need .

cause you the apple to my pie ,
your the straw to my berry ,
your the smoke to my high ,
and youre the one i wanna marry .

cause your the one for me ,
im the one for you ,
you take both of us ,
were the perfect two ..

you can be the prince and i can be the princess ,
you can be the sweetooth i can be the dentist ,
you can be the shoes an i can be the laces ,
you can be the heart that i spill on my pages ..

you can be the vodka i can be the chaser ,
you can the pencil i can be the paper ,
you can as cold as the winter weather ,
but i dont care as long as were together ..

you know that i never doubt ya ?
you know that i'll think about ya ?
and you know i cant live without ya ?

i love the way that you smile .
and mybe in just awhile .
i can see we walk donw aisle :)

love you fitrie :)
imissyousomuch :((
i ta ley lah macam ni :(

ATTENTION .. only him

only know one boy, I only love one boy
I didn’t know that would turn into a burden, you gave me a reason why you’d leave

Can’t receive a man’s heart, and the person that left is content
It seems like you’re definitely going to come today, I feel like I’m going to die
But I cannot die

I knew I would love only one person
I knew I would wait for only one person

You said you would find someone different to love
My two feet cannot go anywhere

I’ll live with this lifelong regret

Everyday I wait for that one boy
The tears in my heart are so full
The tears might overflow

I knew I would love only one person
I knew I would wait for only one person

You said you would find someone different to love
My two feet cannot go anywhere

I’ll live with this lifelong regret

Since I did hard work for love
To rest when I chased after the stars was a waste

I knew that I would only see one person
I knew I would only hug one person

Because other loves couldn’t touch my heart
If it’s not you, then there is no love

I knew that I loved only you
I’ll wait for you here

im happy ??

With one last goodbye, I send you with my love
Still my love fails a bit
I cannot hold you

Now even though I haven’t met you in a long time,
During that time, with the love I gave you,
You can remember

Tears formed whenever I think of that painful time
Being with you for a moment, waiting for my future life extremely is
A present

My love I yell, I shout, my love I cannot see
Someday the way which holds difficulty will come; I pray

My love, just hearing your name I cry, my love
Wherever you are, until I come back be happy

I’m happy
My important memories are with me
I could never change those memories with something else
My needs for relief; I will always protect you
I love you

Once in a while that love brings me tears but
For you I’ll laugh and act and live continuously

My love, I throw it away, even though I throw it all away; my love which I cannot rebuild
Without end, even when the longing stops, I’ll remember

My love, even if I live a lifetime; my only love
Even if the day comes when I close my eyes, I love you

My love I yell, I shout, my love I cannot see
Someday the way which holds difficulty will come; I pray

My love, just hearing your name I cry, my love
Wherever you are, until I come back be happy

love sick :(

When you cry, you can close your eyes and clearly see that person
When you forget and ignore, you’ll remember that person even more

That person will come back, my heart is a seaway; with lies
I didn’t tell you I would come back; you’re someone who can only wait

It was a mistake to love you too much, a mistake to love you too much
Because of you, because of what I love, I suffer from waiting
To love you more was a mistake, a mistake to desire you so much

That person will come back, my heart is a seaway; with lies
I didn’t tell you I would come back; you’re someone who can only wait

It was a mistake to love you too much, a mistake to love you too much
Because of you, because of what I love, I suffer from waiting
To love you more was a mistake, a mistake to desire you so much

The breakup was so fast, if you forget love you’ll know more
To me you were my love, I knew that by myself

You left me, and went somewhere faraway
You left me, and went somewhere faraway

I should have loved you my whole life and now you’re going to forget me and go
I should have loved you all to myself and now you’re going to forget me and go

You’re the one that I loved for my entire life
But you just left me with grief
I knew it all to myself

Because I loved you more, it’s a sin, because I missed you it was a sin
Because of you, I cried because of my sins
like this ..like i do right now .

2nd day of school :) and 4nd day of 2011

today at school .. mmg penat nak belari kesane kemari just nak beli buku ..
gi lab lah ..
ape lah ..
teman c pendek uh g bayar hutang kat SPBT ..
bosan ..
pendekk asyek tido je ..
dah a ta bawak buku teks :(
buat nota sains and perdagangan je :(
c pendekk amekk buku baru aku :((

hari ni , 4 jan 2011 ..
4 day , aku and die break forever :((
yekeer ??
i hope bie it never be that long lahh ..
aku rindu kau tahu takk !!
aku dah tgk dah picture flower tu ..
'this flowers for ayu , i made it my self' ??
thankss bie ..
iloveyou ..
nanti i upload pic kat blog ni ..
pic yg i buat somethng untuk you :(
bie ..
you okay ke ??
i okay je ..
i demam lahh ..
selsema ..
sebab nanges and rindu you sgt :(
and why you block i ??
hmm

new year wish , school is back !

2010 .. tinggal kan banyak kenangan paling sedih ..
penuh dgn happy , tears ..
2011 ..i hope everythng will be better ..
hope he wont forget me ..
mybe die tak tahu aku ni syg die mcm ape and die mybe ingat aku DESPERATE sangat ..
aku sayang die mcm die tu nyawa aku ..
tapi die ? pandai lak cakap , aku ni selalu pikir die tak syg aku ..
saket hati kan ?? macam tu ah aku rase ..
and FYI or for you 411 .. aku tak desperate dengan kau tapi aku sayang kau ..
mybe aku pena cakap aku susa nak cari orang lain ..
tapi bukan sbb aku desperate dgn kau ..
aku tak pena pikir pun kau macam tu ..
kau suke pikir bukan bukan ..
tangan kau bedarah .. lebam ..
aku boleh buat lebih dari tu ..
kepale aku dah lebam , luke ..
tangan aku habes aku toreh ..
sbb saket hati dgn kau punye pasal ..
kau mybe okay hari ni kat sekolah ..
aku ?? langsung tak ..
dgn cikgu nye , dgn budak yg sepak bola kene kepale aku tu pulak cari gadoh ..
saket . serabot tahu ark ??
aku dah janji aku akan tunggu kau sampai after spm ..
aku pun harap kau macam tu ..
kalau nak kate aku tipu kau .. kau macam tak pena tipu aku ..
today aku tahu macam macam pasal kau ..
sampai hati kau buat macam ni kat aku selame ni kan ??
aku tak nafi kan yang aku dah macam orang sawan sebab rindu sangat kat kau..
aku harap kau pun macam tu ..
now aku just ade gambar and baju kau jela .. untuk aku bawak tido hari hari ..
perit tahu tak ..
hati aku dah tawar dah nak nanges hari hari ..
aku nak kau tahu , aku sayang kau sangat sangat ..
aku tak tipu ..
ape aku cakap memang betoll ..
terpulang nak trust or not ..
sayang kau ..please update fb status please .. let me know that , ur always fine ..